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 I am sad...Kim left for college!!!!!!!!!!! It was a cool day though. Me and Amanda followed Kim and her parents to her college. She's in the effing ghhhhhhhetto lol.. I really like her apartment though its really really cute and her roommate is really nice. We then hit up the mall...I was going to meet Jake there but sadly there was something wrong with his car soo I didn't get to see him I'll forgive him this time lol. Then we ate at the Lone Star place...it was pretty good...lol yeah we had our 3 other friends "stand us Up" lol...the waitress didn't know that me, kim and amanda wanted to have our won table while kim's parents and Lane ate at a different table..lol it was funny. I floored 80 all the way back...I got home in a good time lol...after that I went to the softball game with Lyss...nothing too exciting..it started to rain!!! ughh all the girls ran and hid in the dugout while me summer and nichole stood outside lol...we roughed it lol. After that I went over to Lyss's for a while...some ole same ole...played some card games with her jeremiah and Brittany..then it got boring and Jeremiah put on Grease lol...oooommmggg lol...then Brandon came home...I kinda felt like the third wheel and left...so here I sit..

In other news...I am definately over him*. I can't believe I set myself up for another heart break...I need to stay away from these boys...I tried talking to him last night but he was being an ass and decided to block me on his messenger so I wrote him an email of how much of an ass he was being and how ridculous this all was....Ughhh...Boys are soo dumb!!! (Ok sorry not all but most ingeneral!)

Tomorrow I am going to go watch one of Lyss's friends play at some O'Briens I think...there's something to do...then Sunday I wanted to head out to BG and see some people...sooo yeahhh....Ahhh I can't believe school starts Wednesday....Ughh I don't want to go...but the sooner I get this year over the sooner I will be going ot BG...sweeet. Oh and the sooner I will be back at the beach!!!!!!!!! I miss it!!!!!!!

Thats all for now~!

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

This maybe your favorite song...but I never would have thought that I would be posting this about you...never.

God is awesome...I believe he was truely there with me and Amanda today...I am greatful to be alive and ok. Thank you for everyone's prayers and help today.

(Amanda, sorry I killed our van lol...the whole day in my room watching Family Guy was fun lol we'll feel it in the morning though)